A Sad Story

I know this is a long story, but i wish that everyone of you would spend a little time to read this meaningful story.

"On the last day before Christmas, I hurried to go to the supermarket to buy the remaining of the gifts I didn't manage to buy earlier. When I saw all the people there, I started to complain to myself :

'It is going to take forever here and I still have so many other places to go... Christmas really is getting more and more annoying every year. How I wish I could just lie down, go to sleep and only wake up after it...'

Nonetheless, I made my way to the toy section, and there I started to curse the prices, wondering if after all kids really play with such expensive toys.

While looking in the toy section, I noticed a small boy of about 5 years old, pressing a doll against his chest. He kept on touching the hair of the doll and looked so sad. I wondered who was this doll for. Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him :

'Granny, are you sure I don't have enough money?'
'You know that you don't have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.' the old lady replied.

Then she asked him to stay here for 5 minutes while she went to look around. She left quickly. The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand. Finally, I started to walk toward him and I asked him who did he want to give this doll to.

'It is the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for this Christmas. She was so sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her.'

I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus will bring it to her, after all, and not to worry. But he replied to me sadly :

'No, Santa Claus can not bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mother so that she can give it to her when she goes there.'

His eyes were so sad while saying this. 'My sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mommy will also go to see God very soon, so I thought that she could bring the doll with her to give it to my sister.'

My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said :

'I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I asked him to wait until I came back from the store.'

Then he showed me a very nice photo of himself, where he was laughing. He then told me :

'I also want mommy to take this photo with her so that she will not forget me. I love my mommy and I wish she didn't have to leave me but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.'

Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly. I quickly reached for my wallet and took a few notes and said to the boy, 'What if we checked again, just in case you have enough money?' 'Ok' he said. 'I hope that I have enough.'

I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll, and even some spare money.

The little boy said :

'Thank you God for giving me enough money.' Then he looked at me and added, 'I asked yesterday before I slept for God to make sure I have enough money to buy this doll so that mommy can give it to my sister. He heard me.' 'I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn't dare to ask God too much. But he gave me enough to buy the doll and the white rose.' 'You know, my mommy loves white roses.'

A few minutes later, the old lady came again and I left.

I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started. I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind. Then I remembered a local newspaper article 2 days ago, which mentioned of a drunk man in a truck who hit a car where there was one young lady and a little girl. The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-assisting machine, because the young lady would not be able to come out of the coma that she was in. Was this the family of the little boy?

Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the newspaper that the young lady had passed away. I couldn't stop myself and went to buy a bunch of white roses and I went to the mortuary where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make a last wish before burial. She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest. I left the place crying, feeling that my life had been changed forever.

The love that this little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a drunk man had taken all this away from him."

Drown me with roses.

Sorry That I Loved You.

A new day

HELLO! It's been long since i've blogged! And the reason why i'm here is because........ i've changed my blogskin! woooohooooo! hahahaha! lame i know.

Aiya, but the previous layout i see until sian so i change to this current one, and it's so pinkyy! I like! LOL.

Life have been.. ok? Homework almost everyday. Seriously we really can't compare between N and O level. The gap is totally HUGE HUGE HUGE! Not being thick-skinned, but hor, N level you anyhow do sometimes still can get some marks, but O right!! wth one!! you anyhow write = ZERO. Sad right? ~.~ So the main point is : If you want to take O lvl you must study even harder. Or you can say, if you think N level is damn difficult, don't bother going sec 5. It's my honest opinion la.. not everyone will think this way. So ya, good luck for those who are taking N/O's including me!

Anyway, National Day is coming! YAY! don't know why i'm like so excited for this moment to come! hehe! And also on National Day it will be our speech day too, so we're gonna perform our SYF piece(dance)! BUTBUTBUT! it's not EXACTLY our SYF piece :( Cause most of the dancers didn't want to participate in this concert, so there's a lack of dancers hence the movements had to be changed a little.. oh well, i'm sure it will turn out well though :D

Pictures : (Speech day rehearsal)

Beauty and the Beast

00:01 - 02:00
One of my favourite soundtrack in the show "Beauty and the Beast" :)

第一次爱的人

Suddenly thought of this song, haha.
Chinese version of "The Day You Went Away" by M2M.

Story of Regret.

Found this on a website. A sad story indeed.
@ LoveFateDestiny.com

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There was this guy who believed very much in true love and decided to take his time to wait for his right girl to appear. He believed that there would definitely be someone special out there for him, but none came.

Every year at Christmas, his ex-girlfriend would return from Vancouver to look him up. He was aware that she still held some hope of re-kindling the past romance with him. He did not wish to mislead her in any way. Hence, he would always get one of his girl friends to pose as his girlfriend whenever she came back. That went on for several years and every year, the guy would get a different girl to pose as his romantic interest. Therefore, whenever the ex-girlfriend came to visit him, she would be led into believing that it was all over between her and the guy.

The girl took all these rather well. She often tries to casually tease him about his different girlfriends, or so, as it seemed! In fact, the girl often weeps secretly whenever she sees him with another girl but she was too proud to admit it. Still, she returned every Christmas, hoping to re-kindle some form of romance. But each time, she returned to Vancouver feeling disappointed.

She finally decided that she could not play this game any longer. Therefore, she confronted him and professed that after all these years, he was still the only man that she had ever loved. Although the guy knew of her feelings for him, he was still taken aback and never expected her to react this way. He always thought that she would slowly forget about him over time and come to terms that it was all over between them. Although he was touched by her undying love for him and wanted so much to accept her again, he remembered why he rejected her in the first place - she was not the one he wanted. As a result, he hardened his heart and turned her down cruelly. Since then, the girl did not return from Vancouver for three years. They did not even write to each other. The guy went on with his life as he continues his search for his one true love. However somehow deep inside him, he knew that he misses the girl.

During the Christmas of 1995, he went to his friend's party alone.
"Hey, how come you are all alone this year? Where are all your girlfriends? What happened to that Vancouver babe who joins you every Christmas?", asked one of his friends.

He felt warm and comforted by his friend's queries about her but still he simply surged on. Then, he came upon one of his many girlfriends whom he once requested to pose as his girlfriend. He wanted so much to ignore her. It wasn’t because he was impolite but because at that moment, he just didn't feel comfortable with those girlfriends anymore. He felt that it was almost as if he was being judged by them. The girl saw him and shouted across the floor for him. Unable to avoid her, he went up to acknowledge her.

"Hi. How are you? Enjoying the party?" the girl asked.
"Sure. Yeah!", he replied.
She was slightly tipsy from the whiskey in her hand.
She continued, "Why? Don't you need someone to pose as your girlfriend this year?"
Then he answered, "No, there is no need for that anymore..."
He was interrupted before he can continue.
"Oh yes! You must have found a girlfriend! You haven't been searching for one for the past years, right?"
The guy looked up as if he has struck gold. His face beamed and he looked directly at the drunken girl.
He replied, "Yes. You are right! I haven't been looking for anyone for the past years."

With that, the guy darted across the floor and out of the door, leaving the lady in much bewilderment. He finally realized that he had already found his dream girl and she was the Vancouver girl all along! The drunken lady has said something that awoken that fact in him.

All along he had found his girl. That was why he did not bother to look further when he realized she was not coming back. It was not any specific girl he was seeking! It was perfection that he wanted, and yes... Perfection!

Relationship is something that both parties should work on. Realizing that he had let someone so important in his life get away, he decided to call her immediately. His whole mind was flooded with fears. He was afraid that she might have found someone new or no longer had the same feelings anymore. For once in his life, he felt the fear of losing someone.

As it was Christmas’s eve, the line was quite hard to get through. It was especially so for an overseas call. He tried again and again, never giving up. Finally, he got through at precisely twelve midnight. He confessed his love for her and the girl was moved to tears. It seemed that she never got over him! She was still waiting for him and never gave up even after so long.

He was so excited to meet her and to begin his new chapter of their lives. He decided to fly to Vancouver to join her. It was the happiest time of their lives! But their happiness was short-lived. Two days before he was supposed to fly to Vancouver, he received a call from her father. She had a head-on car collision with a drunken driver. She passed away after being in a coma for six hours.

The guy was devastated and was at a complete loss. Why did fate play such cruel games with him? He cursed the heavens for taking her away from him, denying even one last look at her! How cruel he cursed! How he damned the Gods! How he hated himself for taking so long to realize his mistake!! That was in 1996.

The moral of this story is -
Treasure what you have.
Time is too slow for those who wait;
Too swift for those who fear;
Too long for those who grief;
Too short for those who rejoice;
But for those who love...
Time is Eternity.

For all of you out there with someone special in your heart, cherish that person. Cherish every moment that you spend together with that special someone, for in life, anything can happen anytime. You may painfully regret only to realise that it is too late.

Thinking of you.

I have been thinking of you,
And the way you make me feel.
I'm getting scared now
Cause these feelings feel so real,
I've always felt it,
But it's never been this strong
I cannot fall now
I've got to hold on.
When my eyes are on you
It's so hard to look away.
When its time too leave you
I so badly want to stay.
I want to tell you
What's running through my head
But for now I'll just keep it to myself instead,
Cause I want nothing to jeopardize
I want you to know how I feel,
And that I mean it, sometimes
I just want to scream it, its real.
These words have been bottled up inside
They explain the feelings I hide
And the failed times I've tried.
I don't know how much longer I will keep this in,
Thinking of ways,
Don't know where to begin.
Deeply confused,
Don't know what to do,
I'll just leave it be, wait and see,
It will happen if it's meant to be.
I have your friendship,
But I really want your heart
This is tearing me apart;
I don't know what to do
I just want to be with you,
Make you happy and make you smile.
Though times I cant see you for a while,
Its only cause my hearts desires can't be filled.
It's hard to know you're with someone else
When all I want is you here with me,
I want to show you what this could be;
I don't want to tell you
I want you to just open up your eyes and see.
I want you to feel it,
The feelings that I feel,
I really want to show them,
These feelings are so real.
But I can't show you,
I probably never will because
I want to walk, but your standing still.
These are the feelings inside of me,
That are locked away
Waiting to be free,
Drowning my heart in misery.

PoemsLovers.com By Rachel

My heartbeat beats faster whenever i see you.

The only me,

I do not have big round eyes, deep eye sockets, pointed nose, sexy lips, hot figure, thin arms, long legs, beautiful skin tone, smooth skin; because this is who am i. I'm unique on my own. No one is me, neither am i anyone else. So what do you think of my look? Unique isn't it? Because i'm the only one in this world with these wonderful features.

Signing off,
MerleneLSY

You took my breath away.

"Life isn’t about how many breaths you take but about the moments that take your breath away."

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I hope everything will be fine.

I'll be off for a period of time.
Will be back to blogger after my examinations :)

CIAOS!

P/S : Find me on twitter @MerleneLoh for my recent updates :P

Fortunate

The Greatest Sister you can ever have!

You think you know me

Hehehehehe, just being random here! :D

You wouldn't know if you never try.

This picture like stress only right?

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TADAH!

SING! SING! SING! Sing all you want! Ignore what others would think/say and just sing! And after that, you'll feel so much more relieved! :D

HAHAHAHA! Useful right? i know it is, LOL.

Ok la, just a short update ma.. hehe! xx

Misses

There's always good and bad times, and I'll always remember the time we spent together. May it be good or bad, it doesn't matter. As long as we're together.

Even if we're in different school; busy with our own life, it doesn't mean we will never contact each other again. Don't forget our promise! 18 years old we'll go........! HEHEHE :D

XOXO

336th

Lesser time for internet now so i can't really blog much. Everyday is homework homework homework! Tsktsk. I guess i'll only post a proper one after my major examinations. All the best to all!

Find me on Twitter @MerleneLoh for my recent updates, hehe!

SIAN MODE

SO MANY HOMEWORK LEFT UNDONE. SUPER SIAN RIGHT NOW. PEOPLE HAVING FUN I'M HERE DOING MY HOMEWORK! ARGH! I NEED HELP! REALLY REGRET FOR NOT DOING MY HOMEWORK THE PAST 2 DAYS. KILL ME INSTEAD! BUT NO PAIN AR. LOL. OK, I'M JUST SPAMMING A POST RIGHT NOW.. CAUSE I JUST FEEL LIKE POSTING LOR....... AIYA, DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M POSTING ALSO.... SIAO EH. LALALALA~

GOING FRIENDS HOUSE BAI NIAN TMR. SHALL POST A PROPER ONE SOON. SORRY BLOGGY.. I'VE NEGLECTED YOU~ AWWWWWWWWWWWW

P/S : I know i very siao la! ahahahahaha! nothing to do! byebye! x.x

Happy!

Can't wait to get my Chinese New Year clothing! And friends gathering.. and more more more events! HEHEHEHE :D

334th

Hello hello hello! Wow! It had been long since i touched blogger!!

HAIS, been really busy nowadays. And now that i know, what ppl meant by saying Sec 5 (& those who are taking O lvls.) is very stress & we could nvr finish those homework given. *BIG SIGH* Seriously lor, almost everyday got homework! And it's not like just one subject ley. tsktsk. I need more time! 24/7 hours is NOT enough! School had already taken let's say 7 hours of our time, and after school we still have to complete all of our homework.. plus those spare time for us to relax a bit.. 7 hours of sleep & etc... haishais.

School was really tiring for me.. didn't have anytime to meet up with babes.. Especially CF! && those movies that i wanna watch also miss already... VERY SAD LEY!! I really really need a break for myself! Weekends? Busy completing my homework la! You think i so free can go out gaigai (shopping) ar? Maybe can la.. but so many homework, how shop sia? (I really need to manage my timing! Gotta prepare a timetable for myself.. *HAH*(hard to believe!))

I can't start my homework on Friday because i'm just too tired to bother.. all i need is to rest, sleep & play a little? Saturday? If i didn't go out, of course i'll try to start on my homework, but IF i go out, then by the time i reached home it's already late, and i'll confirm be tired. Sunday? You can't possibly call me to finish all my entire homework right? A lot leh... Some more i know myself de.. my motivation only comes at night... at the last minute.. so if you see me completing all my homework before Sunday comes, you really gotta ask me, "Are you Merlene?". Serious la.. not being exaggerated at all.

That's all for tdy.. best of luck to everyone! May 2011 be a good year for everyone! :)












P/S : My lens are here! Wooohooo!(Y)

Only true friends stays..

Will be updating my blog with pictures; Proper post when i'm free :))


1st day of school, 4th Jan 11. Met up with babes for dinner.





Went to Temasek Poly's open house.

Lack of sleep

Had not been surfing the net for quite a few days.. really lazy to even switch on the lappy. Only thing was to update a little in my Twitter&Facebook through ser87's phone.

School had already re-open since 4th January 2011. A brand new year with i brand new goal to achieve. Yup, i've successfully promoted to Sec 5 and i'll be taking my O levels this year. Not sure if i could endure the stress given in Sec 5. I've even thought of transferring to ITE, Higher Nitec. But yes, i know O level's cert is really important, and i should not waste my chance. I MUST WORK HARD TO GET INTO THE SCHOOL & COURSE THAT I WANT.

Anyway, now it's already the 1 week of school. Sadly, we gotta wake up early again, holidays had over......... i know it's not like we hadn't been through this before, but aiya, you know what~ whenever holidays were over, and school/work life is back, you'll feel damn sian right?! You can't sleep as much as you want to! and stuff like that.. all you have to do is to work hard on your studies and plan for your future. Ohhhhhhhh, i'm-so-missing my holidays now!

And now i'm so wanna have more more more sleep! LACK OF SLEEP MAN. Since now that Chai Chee Secondary had merged with Bedok Town Secondary, i gotta take two bus to reach BTS! From my house to bedok inter, then from there to BTS. Haizx... not only that but i have to wake up 30 minutes earlier!! :( I know that 30mintues only ma~ not as if it's 1 or 2 hours, but 30minutes to me it's really very PRECIOUS! even 1 minute i feel A LOT! Most of you surely know about the feeling right?! Like the alarm rang or your mum call you to wake up, then you'll go "Okok, 5 minutes more can le!" then even this 5 minutes you feel like you have sleep quite long~ (also not say very long la, but like it's good enough alrdy) right right right?! Some more now it's 30 minutes! ohhhh~~ my beloved 30 mintues~ LOL

BUTBUTBUT, the 30 minutes is precious only if i'm sleeping or having fun, NOT for SCHOOL! For school, 30 minutes is counted as so damn not precious! and that you'll feel that why the 30 minutes ticked so slowly?! (which means time always flies when we're having fun). :((

Alright, shall not go on with this topic le! Haizx..

Ohyeah, i'm don't think i'll surf the net that often, don't have the time to anyway. And i doubt ppl are reading my blog -.- lol... so dead & boring who want read sia? Ok, bye! ^^

Keep my updates on twitter/facebook maybe? See how it goes ba! Gotta concentrate on my studies now!! GO GO GO everyone! :D


Love this hairband! Nice only! Wahahaha!